My mind is so full of him. COREY.

KYAN, maybe just a crush. but corey... i think i still love him.
- posted by Hallucinate @ 9:19 PM

 
I seem to have gotten over my crush of kyan... well... for some reasons...

not sure what exactly... but i think we are not compatible. i can be a nice guy.. but i don't think he will appreciate.

i guess he knew i have a little affection for him. but somehow or the other i felt that he is taking an advantage of it. well... as the chinese saying goes... "wu shi bu deng san bao dian".

in anyway... i will still keep my options open... and continue to be Mr Nice Guy.

With Love

Wil
- posted by Hallucinate @ 6:32 PM

 
Today went to Richmond AOG with KYAN. It is so hot today. The sun's rays were burning right into my skin.

Sat beside KYAN, said a little prayer for him in church a also a little prayer for myself. I ask God to take the love i have for him away.

2.20pm THUNDERSTORM
Many people said my mood is like melbourne's weather. UNPREDICTABLE.

I thought i had came to terms about not having KYAN anymore. But i am not so sure now. I still cant bear to let go. I wonder why.

Do i still love him or not ? I want to ask him whether he can give me a chance or not. But i am so afraid that he might say we are incompatible... :"(


LOVE YOU...
KYAN SOO WEE KIANG
- posted by Hallucinate @ 2:25 PM

 
Never in my life i love someone so much. Many people said, most men love $ex more than cheesecake. But i think its different this time. I love him more than anything !!

The only one that i truly ever love before is Corey. The only one i ever cried for before. The rest just made my heart breaks.

After we broke up >1 year ago, sometimes i still think of him. If i were in Singapore then, it would not have turned out this way...

...

Then KYAN came along. I knew my heart belongs to him already. He blew it away. I simply love him soooo soooo sooo much. Every single second... i think of him.

KYAN, I LOVE YOU.
- posted by Hallucinate @ 5:16 PM

 
I am back for the new semester. Will be the last year spending here in Melbourne. Nothing much happened during the break i had. Went home on the 20th Dec and came back to Melbourne on the 27th Feb.

5TH Day of the Lunar New Year: Went to Hainan, Haikou to visit Yang Yu. (Enjoy Enjoy Enjoy. I love China).

Easter Break: Little Dog Island (Thorougly Dissapointed TRIP)

7th April 2005: Spent a night at KYAN's room. YUBIN is his housemate. Suprise surprise...
Chatted with KYAN till he fell alseep. SNORING. So cute watching him sleep.

Fall in Love with him... i wonder whether he feels the same. I felt terrible today. Beside being unable to sleep the whole night (insomnia), and feeling lethargic now, my heart aches everytime i think of him.

I know my chance of being together with him is very very slim. I prayed that god would grant me this wish... but .

I just felt terrible inside. Saw him on msn. Dare not call or sms him. Only dare to chat over msn. Even so, afraid that i might say something wrong.

I FEEL TERRIBLE!

I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU

KYAN ! I LOVE YOU !!!
- posted by Hallucinate @ 12:11 PM

 
Written in Melbourne, Saturday Morning 2004. 3AM, COLD

After a year long retreat. I thought the luck i ran out in 2003 will soon be recovered in 2004. However, little did i expect. Things are still the way it was. I am sorry for getting away for so long. I have many things on my mind and i really need to sit down one day and write all that into space. From Genesis 2004 to Reveletions 2004.

Today spark my entry into space again because i was a little dissapointed with a friend. I want to jot this down so that i would not forget. There is many things i could not forget. Before i forget (contradicting), i am thoroughly upset with my grades this semester. They are terrible.

Ok, down to things that happened today.

A small replay of this day, 16th Dec 2004

3PM Brighton Beach

7PM The Glen Waverly Swimming Complex

10PM Justo's Residence

20th Dec 2004 Homerun

A week ago, i told James that i would love to go to Sorrento for a day trip and asked whether he is free to bring me there. (somethings happened here but were insignificant)

We said that Saturday would be a good day.
- posted by Hallucinate @ 3:05 AM

 
Wah !!! I am procrastinating again !!! Less than a week to exams liao... what am i doing ? Haiz... my friends spoilt my day... call me at my cellophone soon after i woke up and gave me a helluva scolding. Why ? For switching off his mobile when he left it with another friend and he lost his sms records after that... OMG... what kinda phone is that ? Anyway, 2 of them blamed me... so... while they were screaming... i hung it up on them! FED UP!!! what kind of friends ?
- posted by Hallucinate @ 12:31 PM

 
Cold. It almost rained the whole day ! And how i hated it to rain in Melbourne. Today is not very kind to me. Besides raining, i lost my pencil case. In it, 1 hp battery, a thumbdrive that belongs to my friend, my favourite stationary... haiz....

I feel that i dun belong to this world. Somebody tell me something !!!........
- posted by Hallucinate @ 3:26 PM

 
Arghhh.... i think i really did screw up my presentation !!! Oh well... gave a short sharp sweet one. But i know my English or rather Singlish is not as good as those Ang Mohs !!!

What to do ? Thats why i am in Engineering. Got nothing to do with essay. Only mathematics and more mathematics.

This subject Fact, Fiction and Fraud in the digital age is only my elective this semester ! Luckily there is no exams !

25deg today.
- posted by Hallucinate @ 2:25 PM

 
Hellooooo... can anybody hear me ?

Doesnt matter. Exams is just round the corner. And i am screwing up my revision. There is a presentation tomorrow. Its only worth 10% and i am using the whole day to screw it up. Yah... screw it up. I hate presentation. I dont like giving talks ! It is such a pain.

- posted by Hallucinate @ 10:24 PM